Human beings are complex creatures--for more reasons than most think. The main reason to which I am referring is about the way we continuously make the same dumb mistakes over and over, even when we know the outcome will be negative. We just enjoy the thrill of the adventure. How, when one performs a cost-benefit analysis, does thrill outweigh a broken heart? Hmph. I don't like it. I need to change it.

I graduated from Queens two weeks ago. I got a job at a church as the Assistant Director of Children and Family Ministiry. My best friend is getting married on Saturday, and I still with no marryable man in sight. I'm excited about being an adult..having a real, salary paying, benefits offering job and about living with Amy in September...but I don't know how long I will healthily live with the void in my heart and the want for a companion.  Sometimes I wish it weren't there. I could live alone forever and be completely content. When did we get old enough to get married, graduate college, and have real jobs? Shoot.

p.s. this picture of me on my site cracks me up. That was when I had the worst haircut in the world. Next time I log onto Xanga and I'm on my computer (so, in 7 months) I'll upload some recent pictures. I don't look like that anymore.

so it's been almost two months...and man it's been crazy.

I broke my foot and get to have surgery on it Wednesday.  They're going to stick a screw in it, hooray for setting off all metal detectors from now until the end of my life.

I miss Lindsey...and all of my friends at home.  I havent seen her or Amy in forever...I wish they could come visit me. 

I started my classes and let me tell you...I may just fail statistics...cross your fingers for me.  I'm also taking general psych and environmental science...pretty boring semester.

i have a crush.  it's fun.

Oh yeah, and I'm an RA.  Did I mention that?  it's quite a task...especially when you have half of the basketball team on your hall...but i love it.  We have fun.

That's all for now.
Have a good one.